I’m hesitantly clicking at the keys right now….because there’s something about me that you don’t know.
I’m an alcoholic.
There….I said it.
I’m a 40 year old, mother of three, alcoholic. Now I’m not talking about the kind that drinks from morning till night…no….but I am the type that seems to feel the need to have a couple of glasses (big glasses) of wine each and every night so that she can cope with reality and fall asleep without a moments notice. No one but myself sees me at the “end of the day”…..
I enjoy wine…really I do…but I think I take it to the extreme and…..I’ve been trying to “quit” for some time now……there’s just so much stress in my life….no excuse I know but…..it’s all I’ve got.
Did you know that my fil’s lungs are filling with fluid? Did you know that my disabled father lives with us? Did you know that my mother called me my father’s “whore”? Or that I’m at my fil’s 3 times a day to give him his daily pills? That I have 3 children to take care of…and one dog. That I have a bookkeeping business from home….20 clients… That I’m worn out…exhausted.
That God is trying to tell me something…..and I haven’t quite gotten it figure out yet?
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